I’m a fuckin drug addicted delivery driver!!! On full blown lay off….

I have issues with people who talk about meth users in such negative ways. I hate that there is such a bad stigma that goes along with the use of meth. 

I am a meth user. I’m not proud to be.

But I am. For over 20 years, now.

It started as a recreational thing. Then turned into more of a mental anguish deterrent.

Now it’s just to get through the day without feeling like complete shit.

I work. Pay bills.

Socialize with ” normal people “.

Have very good friends that aren’t users. That know that I am.  That don’t treat me like an untrustworthy criminal. That trust me to care for their kids, grandkids, pets, home etc. 

I carry on day to day as a functioning member of society. The caveat? I do have a drug felony from well over a decade ago, however.

I took the rap for my boyfriend in order to keep him out of prison.

Dumbest shit I’ve ever done, but who’s dwelling?

Yeah… Moving on. 

Side Effects?

Hmmmmm…

I do admit to having/developing long term side effects of using meth regularly.

I have issues with anxiety. Being in crowds. Problem solving.

I am very easily discouraged. 

I wonder what people are thinking about me at times. More so than normal, probably?

I’m definitely going to need a dental miracle soon! 

Which I totally blame on dope. 100%.

My kids try but tend to have a difficult time understanding why their mom uses meth. 

If ever a drug test is necessary for whatever reason, I rely on one of my non user friends for on demand clean urine.

Which sucks. Embarrassing.

My Scientific Side of Shit…

It’s these things that make me want to bust out the scientific side of shit.

Right down to molecular structures, comparing legal drugs such as Adderall and Vyvanse. You know, the ADD or ADHD drugs prescribed by Drs all over our country? 

I could bore people with a bunch of big words that wouldn’t help my case at all. 

Instead, I’ll just simply share that there is NO REAL SCIENTIFIC DIFFERENCE BETWEEN STREET METH AND PRESCRIBED METH. (Adderall) 

Only ONE methyl group (a carbon atom bonded to 3 hydrogen atoms) away from street meth.

Yeah (Knowledge through Subtraction)

And all that is, is absorption rate. 

Seriously. No shit.

Weird, huh?

Weird how there’s such a misinformed public perception.

But anyways. 

Hi.

I’m ShOnda. A (not so average) meth head.