“Why Can’t They Write???”

They are called Pipe Dreams for a reason. Meth addiction is consistent in many areas. Dreams and harsh realities collide every time one slips out of dreams and re-enters the harsh reality of mainstream life. The closest thing I can come up with in terms of a guttural analogy, is a comparison of the modern day meth addict, to the tortured but innately human and flawed post apocalyptic zombies shown assembled at the end of the classic movie “Shaun of the Dead“

Regardless of which, the impasse in front of me remains that in order to inject (no pun) content into this blog, I need writers that have viewed this process from the inside-out so to speak- either having confronted themselves and turned the corner, or relegating themselves to their fate as true victims of opportunity to those that sell these drugs in order to cultivate a garden of lost souls from which to be plucked from, at the whim and leisure of their dispassionate and non-addicted handler(s).

So many promises made when High- so much lost when Not-High…

There is no “straight” or “normal” to return to. That bridge is burned and gone up in smoke.

MOVIE INFO

“Shaun is a 30-something loser with a dull, easy existence. When he’s not working at the electronics store, he lives with his slovenly best friend, Ed, in a small flat on the outskirts of London. The only unpredictable element in his life is his girlfriend, Liz, who wishes desperately for Shaun to grow up and be a man. When the town is inexplicably overrun with zombies, Shaun must rise to the occasion and protect both Liz and his mother.”

So let’s just juxtapose this parody and switch out the flesh-diminishing virus- in exchange for the capacity-limiting impact of meth on it’s host?

Viewed through these lens, we can identify with the user “as one of us“, as opposed to “one-of-them“. In order to see a person, one has to believe that the person in front of them is actually a real person and does indeed have the prerequisite “soul” that defines us as caring human beings…

In this case, victims that have had the misfortune of becoming afflicted regardless of the choices that were made to get them there. I do believe that meth rearranges the prime instincts that we have to ensure personal survival, and effectively rearranges them into a word salad that comprises a mix of extreme emotions and anxieties that work very well on a person to person level, but eliminates the essential skills we rely on for day to day survival. You can talk the talk, but you can’t walk the walk.

The Walking Dead … so to speak. People that have negotiated an exchange of power with a very powerful drug, to become a more emotional, with less dispassionate extremes of their root personalities. Meth doesn’t make people good or bad… It just accelerates bad people to become more craven, and good people to become more like sheep.

But today, just for today. I need sheep that can write. Sheep that can write a new ticket to life.

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From the Other Side of the Equation …

I have issues with people who talk about meth users in such negative ways. I hate that there is such a bad stigma that goes along with the use of meth. 

I am a meth user. I’m not proud to be.

But I am. For over 20 years, now.

It started as a recreational thing. Then turned into more of a mental anguish deterrent.

Now it’s just to get through the day without feeling like complete shit.

I work. Pay bills.

Socialize with ” normal people “.

Have very good friends that aren’t users. That know that I am.  That don’t treat me like an untrustworthy criminal. That trust me to care for their kids, grandkids, pets, home etc. 

I carry on day to day as a functioning member of society. The caveat? I do have a drug felony from well over a decade ago, however.

I took the rap for my boyfriend in order to keep him out of prison.

Dumbest shit I’ve ever done, but who’s dwelling?

Yeah… Moving on. 

Side Effects?

Hmmmmm…

I do admit to having/developing long term side effects of using meth regularly.

I have issues with anxiety. Being in crowds. Problem solving.

I am very easily discouraged. 

I wonder what people are thinking about me at times. More so than normal, probably?

I’m definitely going to need a dental miracle soon! 

Which I totally blame on dope. 100%.

My kids try but tend to have a difficult time understanding why their mom uses meth. 

If ever a drug test is necessary for whatever reason, I rely on one of my non user friends for on demand clean urine.

Which sucks. Embarrassing.

My Scientific Side of Shit…

It’s these things that make me want to bust out the scientific side of shit.

Right down to molecular structures, comparing legal drugs such as Adderall and Vyvanse. You know, the ADD or ADHD drugs prescribed by Drs all over our country? 

I could bore people with a bunch of big words that wouldn’t help my case at all. 

Instead, I’ll just simply share that there is NO REAL SCIENTIFIC DIFFERENCE BETWEEN STREET METH AND PRESCRIBED METH. (Adderall) 

Only ONE methyl group (a carbon atom bonded to 3 hydrogen atoms) away from street meth.

Yeah (Knowledge through Subtraction)

And all that is, is absorption rate. 

Seriously. No shit.

Weird, huh?

Weird how there’s such a misinformed public perception.

But anyways. 

Hi.

I’m ShOnda. A (not so average) meth head. 

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TRUFAxTS: The Pharm Side of Things…

Doctors frequently prescribe stimulants like Adderall to help their patients with ADHD and narcolepsy stay mentally sharp, alert and energetic. When used as prescribed, Adderall can provide more focus and clarity to people with these specific health disorders. However, for people without ADHD or narcolepsy, using Adderall without a prescription is dangerous and illegal. Read on to learn about the effects of Adderall, its potential risks and its similarities to methamphetamine.

HOW DOES ADDERALL AFFECT THE BRAIN?

Adderall acts upon your central nervous system. It speeds up brain activity by increasing the amounts and availability of neurotransmitters called dopamine and norepinephrine. While this medication is in your system, it can relieve the disruptive symptoms of ADHD and narcolepsy.

When used correctly under a doctor’s supervision, ADHD medications like Adderall are unlikely to be habit-forming. However, if you don’t have a legitimate medical reason to use Adderall, taking this drug can be risky. There’s no conclusive evidence this medication has any benefits for people who do not struggle with narcolepsy or ADHD.

According to the National Institute on Drug Abuse, taking Adderall or other stimulants for reasons other than ADHD and narcolepsy can increase the chances of becoming physically or psychologically dependent. Potential unwanted side effects of Adderall include nervousness, headache, dry mouth, weight loss, dizziness, seizures, paranoia and a rapid or irregular heartbeat. Abruptly quitting Adderall can also cause uncomfortable withdrawal symptoms.

ADDERALL VS. METHAMPHETAMINE

As stimulant drugs, meth and Adderall are chemically similar. However, methamphetamine is much more powerful than Adderall because more of the drug reaches a user’s brain. Meth also has more harmful side effects and a higher potential for abuse and addiction.

People misuse meth by smoking, snorting, injecting or swallowing it. While meth creates a rapid, powerful rush of good feelings, it also wears off quickly, leaving people chasing a high. Those who develop a tolerance will need increasingly higher doses to achieve the same effects, and as a meth addiction worsens, it can become all-consuming.

Nationwide, meth addiction has caused devastating problems for entire communities, causing higher rates of crime, unemployment and child neglect. Ongoing meth abuse can cause people to experience psychotic symptoms like hallucinating the sensation of bugs crawling under their skin. In some cases, meth-related psychosis can persist long after someone quits using. Additionally, brain scans of chronic meth users have shown several notable alterations in regions associated with learning, emotion, decision-making and memory.

Besides the neurological and behavioral consequences of methamphetamine misuse, long-term users also experience physical effects, including drastic weight loss and severe tooth decay resulting from poor nutrition. In addition to the typical “meth mouth,” many meth users also develop open skin sores from picking and scratching at the imaginary insects.

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